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Title: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 26, 2011, 05:46:18 pm
go!
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: DamienZ on January 26, 2011, 05:47:09 pm
inb4 Raptor :uhhhfacepalm:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 26, 2011, 05:57:59 pm
ok, i was about to post this in the "motivational thread", but i figured it's too emo, so i'll post it here.

ok well, my toe hurts and i'm still sick.. i don't even want to train today.. i'm probably not going to do any training.. i'm probably just going to relax and starve myself so that I am 152 tomorrow.. i'm STILL somewhat sick, mucous, runny nose, etc.. my hamstrings are so sore i feel like just giving up, this soreness is extreme. I don't know if i'll be able to dunk friday, hoep so though.. I'd like to dunk Saturday and Wednesday I guess.. that's the plan for now but i'm just so tired and fatigued from medication, flu, and toe/knee injury, so who knows.

i might cut myself later, dno tho, can't find my blades.

ok i'm glad i didn't post this in the MOTIVATIONAL THREAD OR BEAST THREAD, feel better now.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on January 26, 2011, 06:01:28 pm
my back hurts  :uhhhfacepalm:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 26, 2011, 06:07:26 pm
my back hurts  :uhhhfacepalm:

let's kill ourselves on webcam.. "1-2-3 go" style.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on January 26, 2011, 08:07:50 pm
My ass hurts.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on January 26, 2011, 08:08:04 pm
 :o See what I did there?

Edit: Could be taken the wrong way. Also, shouldn't this become a link in the lol thread?
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 26, 2011, 08:19:47 pm
:D See what I did there?

Edit: Could be taken the wrong way. Also, shouldn't this become a link in the lol thread?

there are no smiley faces in the emo thread.

 :-\
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on January 26, 2011, 08:58:10 pm
There was no smiley, you edited my quote.  :ninja: Why would you do that? I hate people.  :'(
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 26, 2011, 09:09:37 pm
There was no smiley, you edited my quote.  :ninja: Why would you do that? I hate people.  :'(

nice try, but i quoted you, and we all see you have violated a cardinal rule of the emo thread, using a smiley.. there's no smiling, happyness, or supporting each other in the emo thread.

 :-\ :-\ :-\ :-\ :-\ :-\ :-\ :-\
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on January 26, 2011, 11:36:51 pm
Why must forum life be so difficult?! :-[
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 27, 2011, 04:02:34 am

[04:01am] adarq: TURF TOE IS RUINING MY FUCKING LIFE.
[04:01am] dagger: oh really
[04:01am] Smooth: put that in the pussy thread
[04:01am] Smooth: u pussy
[04:01am] Smooth: bleedin alll over irc
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on January 27, 2011, 07:21:41 am
I have no women so i'm learning 8 hours per day for exams and masturbating three-four times in between those hours to keep myself from entering deep depression
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Jard on January 27, 2011, 10:08:06 am
I LOL'D @ Raptor refusing to get in here.

F*ck rules, life is good b*tches!

Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on January 27, 2011, 02:42:13 pm
Sometimes, when adarq says he's going to try to get down to 130 pounds, I think he's serious and I get upset.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 27, 2011, 05:06:09 pm
I have no women so i'm learning 8 hours per day for exams and masturbating three-four times in between those hours to keep myself from entering deep depression

Great post, set yourself free.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 27, 2011, 05:06:44 pm
Pissed that i'm not 149 yet, 151.6 today. Toe hurting. Nose still runny. Hamstrings still sore.

bbl cutting myself.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on January 27, 2011, 11:46:01 pm
got a 96 on my chem final...
raised my grade from an 88 to....
..
..
..
89.43


(http://jeremyscheller.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/02/cliff.jpg)
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 28, 2011, 03:51:37 am
got a 96 on my chem final...
raised my grade from an 88 to....
..
..
..
89.43


(http://jeremyscheller.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/02/cliff.jpg)

wow, that is horrible, cut yourself to mask the pain.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: TheSituation on January 28, 2011, 05:18:17 am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rmp6zIr5y4U
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Sean0013 on January 28, 2011, 05:20:43 am
hahaha..this can be our secret hideaway to talk shit about Raptor!


*waits for Raptor to stroll in....

Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on January 28, 2011, 01:59:48 pm
I am getting PR's in everything except the one thing I care about.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on January 28, 2011, 03:01:32 pm
I'm still learning and fapping, 3rd day in a row  :rant:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 28, 2011, 04:58:52 pm
im trying to take a poop, for the last 10 minutes, but.. nothing.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: TheSituation on January 28, 2011, 06:43:13 pm
Even ugly guys can get girls. There's plenty of hot girls who can't pay their rent out there.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: ARowe on January 29, 2011, 05:05:35 am
I'm a weak pussy







































not srs




























amidoinitright?
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 29, 2011, 05:07:37 am
my toe hurts VERY bad, EXTREMELY bad.. pretty sure i have a stress fracture in the metatarsal/cuniform bone.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on January 29, 2011, 05:42:18 pm
Even ugly guys can get girls. There's plenty of hot girls who can't pay their rent out there.

1. I'm not ugly, i'm actually closer to a greek statue than to being ugly  ;D
2. The REAL EMO part is that i don't have girls not because i can't as girls try to get in touch with me and are hitting on me every once in a while BUT because i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else  :headbang:
REAL EMO!
(No real issues though, everything is "aggravated" by learning shit for school exams, the rest of the time i'm ok)
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: DamienZ on January 29, 2011, 07:00:33 pm
Even ugly guys can get girls. There's plenty of hot girls who can't pay their rent out there.

1. I'm not ugly, i'm actually closer to a greek statue than to being ugly  ;D
2. The REAL EMO part is that i don't have girls not because i can't as girls try to get in touch with me and are hitting on me every once in a while BUT because i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else  :headbang:
REAL EMO!
(No real issues though, everything is "aggravated" by learning shit for school exams, the rest of the time i'm ok)

stop being friends with her :ninja:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on January 30, 2011, 01:02:15 am
Even ugly guys can get girls. There's plenty of hot girls who can't pay their rent out there.

1. I'm not ugly, i'm actually closer to a greek statue than to being ugly  ;D
2. The REAL EMO part is that i don't have girls not because i can't as girls try to get in touch with me and are hitting on me every once in a while BUT because i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else  :headbang:
REAL EMO!
(No real issues though, everything is "aggravated" by learning shit for school exams, the rest of the time i'm ok)

stop being friends with her :ninja:

x2, also slice your wrists & refrain from using smileys in the emo thread.. we don't smile in this thread.

my damn toe is killing me.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on January 30, 2011, 05:00:57 pm
I'm sorry about the toe. I won't stop being friends with anybody unless they stop being friends with me... I can barely make time to meet with all of the friends i have on a regular basis, and a vast majority of them are really good friends and helped me one way or the other in time... I like how being sad and seeing things i don't like equals instant pump for the gym/dunks, so emo is the way to be
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on January 31, 2011, 07:37:58 am
14:36       Nightfly   i'm c-walking around the house tuning on rihanna's who's that chick
14:36   Nightfly   i think i just leveld up in gayness
14:36   DamienZ   lol
14:36   DamienZ   -> emothread
14:37   Nightfly   yeah
14:37   Nightfly   brb to post
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 01, 2011, 08:19:28 pm
I'm sorry about the toe. I won't stop being friends with anybody unless they stop being friends with me... I can barely make time to meet with all of the friends i have on a regular basis, and a vast majority of them are really good friends and helped me one way or the other in time... I like how being sad and seeing things i don't like equals instant pump for the gym/dunks, so emo is the way to be

friends? what are those.

sincerely,

forever alone.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: TheSituation on February 05, 2011, 02:59:38 am
This kid is alive

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_Ec9EbDlRBE4/S8u_VMV_EHI/AAAAAAAAAB0/9cUYvMrF7pQ/s400/starving-child.jpg

Your life doesn't sound bad anymore does it?
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: DamienZ on February 05, 2011, 04:06:27 am
wow, he is so ripped!
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 05, 2011, 04:20:48 am
my hamstrings + glutes are SOOO sore.. i bumped my knee REALLY bad today, two times, same spot.. it swelled UNDER patella tendon insertion, so that's good at least.

life sucks.

bbl dying.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: DamienZ on February 07, 2011, 01:54:27 pm
I've had a very bad headache all day (never had this) and my right elbow flexors been hurting for weeks and now that i squat a lot it got much worse. After every set of squats i almost can't move my right arm...
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on February 07, 2011, 04:49:16 pm
Thinking about my sore hamstrings, school or everything else stopped after watching this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltAyKLtn3nI
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 07, 2011, 04:49:49 pm
I've had a very bad headache all day (never had this) and my right elbow flexors been hurting for weeks and now that i squat a lot it got much worse. After every set of squats i almost can't move my right arm...

i've had that with the arm after squats, but lifting my grandpa is the culprit, wrecks up my rotator cuff, then i unrack the bar and i can't move my arm for 15seconds or so.





im still sore today, quads and hamstrings especially.. very sore.. toe bugging a little more too.

WHY LORD, WHY.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: DamienZ on February 07, 2011, 05:09:36 pm
Thinking about my sore hamstrings, school or everything else stopped after watching this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltAyKLtn3nI

wow that this is still on youtube...
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on February 07, 2011, 06:00:39 pm
I walk past the Ahmadiyya mosque in DC every time I go to the gym. It's literally a quarter block away. Never knew this shit about them. Snuff films really, REALLY NOT COOL OR OKAY TO POST, in my opinion..

The organization I work for is affiliated with a different group of marginalized/oppressed Muslims.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 07, 2011, 06:57:31 pm
I walk past the Ahmadiyya mosque in DC every time I go to the gym. It's literally a quarter block away. Never knew this shit about them. Snuff films really, REALLY NOT COOL OR OKAY TO POST, in my opinion..

The organization I work for is affiliated with a different group of marginalized/oppressed Muslims.

i don't necessarily consider that snuff?? it would be more appropriate in the politics subforum though for sure.

i've posted the kenyans being burned alive because tribes thought they were "witches", because they didnt conform to christianity, in the politics subforum.

ya that video is disgusting but it's more of a 'news related' vid to me..

religion is gey.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on February 07, 2011, 07:39:20 pm
Since it was brought up...

http://photoblog.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/02/03/5981906-christians-protect-muslims-during-prayer-in-cairos-dangerous-tahrir-square (http://photoblog.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2011/02/03/5981906-christians-protect-muslims-during-prayer-in-cairos-dangerous-tahrir-square)

HELL. YES.

Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: BMully on February 07, 2011, 09:57:29 pm
Got like 2 fucking hours of sleep. failed a test because i did'nt know about it. Besides that test, I had another FUCKING Monday test. My thumbs hurts from shoveling snow yesterday(first time this has happened, it's weird pain) My old school buddies mom died suddenly after a surgery. I feel asleep in on of the hardest classes I have. And right now, i'm wasting time instead of doing a debate research project that is due tomorrow.

I feel better now :) Just need to get them off my chest
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: mike.1283 on February 08, 2011, 07:24:45 am
1st post to this specific thread, and this is not in the least bit relevant to any of the topics above me, but I haven't been quite this depressed in a while I friggin hate my job more and more.  At this current moment I don't even want to be a "trainer" or a CSCS anymore, I want to find a 9 - 5 regular old office job.  Being a trainer/CSCS has its perks but this crap is getting old.  I just feel like I got a lot on my mind, for no real reason that I can think of.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Jard on February 08, 2011, 08:22:41 am
1st post to this specific thread, and this is not in the least bit relevant to any of the topics above me, but I haven't been quite this depressed in a while I friggin hate my job more and more.  At this current moment I don't even want to be a "trainer" or a CSCS anymore, I want to find a 9 - 5 regular old office job.  Being a trainer/CSCS has its perks but this crap is getting old.  I just feel like I got a lot on my mind, for no real reason that I can think of.

Grass is allways greener on the other side.
Explain situation.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 09, 2011, 08:02:04 pm
1st post to this specific thread, and this is not in the least bit relevant to any of the topics above me, but I haven't been quite this depressed in a while I friggin hate my job more and more.  At this current moment I don't even want to be a "trainer" or a CSCS anymore, I want to find a 9 - 5 regular old office job.  Being a trainer/CSCS has its perks but this crap is getting old.  I just feel like I got a lot on my mind, for no real reason that I can think of.

sucks man, i started feeling like that too a while back.. training dedicated athletes is fun, training quitters is just beyond draining to me..

i'm someone who would like to just 'train, exist, relax, eat, have beautiful chick posse like hef", so even if work is just beyond fun, it's still work, and i change my mind alot.. i'll never be happy unless im on the beach eating coconuts after dunking/working out surrounded by dime pieces... err-day.









i'm sick again, will probably be full on wrecked tomorrow.. this time i'm not resting though, going to do some basketball stuff then squat heavy singles then db bench etc, being sick can go fuck itself.

green phlegm, chills, aches, headache, etc..

not looking forward to the next few days.

i bought alot of vitamin C tho.. im going to dose up so hard.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: BMully on February 13, 2011, 05:16:12 pm
Nobody posts in my journal but me :(
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on February 13, 2011, 05:57:23 pm
My hand is so messed up. My right thumb which was already dislocated is purple and huge from swelling and my other fingers are cut like a knife went throught them, so i couldn't dunk normally and i had to dunk only wth my left hand and do me jumps with my head :(
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 13, 2011, 10:28:16 pm
My hand is so messed up. My right thumb which was already dislocated is purple and huge from swelling and my other fingers are cut like a knife went throught them, so i couldn't dunk normally and i had to dunk only wth my left hand and do me jumps with my head :(

how'd that happen? sucks.. just end it all








im sick as hell, really sick, and i have to go squat, fml.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on February 13, 2011, 11:01:16 pm
Nobody posts in my journal but me :(

Maybe no one loves you.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Jon on February 14, 2011, 01:16:04 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ibsv1qrHGVE
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: mike.1283 on February 17, 2011, 02:49:41 pm
Quote from: adarqui
sucks man, i started feeling like that too a while back.. training dedicated athletes is fun, training quitters is just beyond draining to me..

i'm someone who would like to just 'train, exist, relax, eat, have beautiful chick posse like hef", so even if work is just beyond fun, it's still work, and i change my mind alot.. i'll never be happy unless im on the beach eating coconuts after dunking/working out surrounded by dime pieces... err-day.

i'm sick again, will probably be full on wrecked tomorrow.. this time i'm not resting though, going to do some basketball stuff then squat heavy singles then db bench etc, being sick can go fuck itself.

green phlegm, chills, aches, headache, etc..

not looking forward to the next few days.

i bought alot of vitamin C tho.. im going to dose up so hard.

Sucks about bein sick, hope ur feelin better at this point as its been a lil while since posted here.

Quote from: Jard
Grass is allways greener on the other side.
Explain situation.

(Hope my "HTML tagging" is correct above), but 1st off let me say that with me I go through many phases (bi-polar - legitimately, and also bad anxiety) and this could end up turning into a bit of a story, other thing is by postin this I'm not askin anyone to neccessarily feel bad for me, and I'm certainly not tryin to say that I have it so incredibly rough, especially compared to others out there, who have it worse but live every day to the fullest extent.  That being said, most recently my computer crashed, hard drive shut down.  I've been using my work comp when able to post here, and check my Facebooks, and haven't been posting at all to bb.com.

Job related stuff - as of right now I'm workin full time as a trainer in a corporate setting, and I'm so incredibly thankful to have a job, and be making money in this economy we're in, but working 40+ hours a week (including travel time) has been a totally new experience coming from a job where I would work 15-20 hours a week (max including travel time) and if there were ever a situation where I didn't want to go into work on a given week I could get the time off if need be.  (Like potentially get set up with a Dr/Specialist and get some true advice on my ankle rather than what is I look up online, which tends to be worst case scenario)
I was also in a situation where I was mostly doing personal training and working out about 20 hours a week, and then playin vid ames about just as much, now both of those numbers are cut at least in half (which I stated in my journal) and my workouts have been kinda off and on shitty at times.
The gym that I was working out at (for free) and I was on their "sub" list to help out shifts if able to, they cut me from which ended my membership, which isn't too much a big deal other than the fact that 1) I don't want to pay for a gym membership, and I was used to working out there having routines set up for that specific gym, and 2) there were about 6 girls there who I was trying to figure out if I could "get involved with" 1 who has actually been a pretty good friend of mine and we used to run together, the other 1s I was just barely getting to know, and don't have any contact info on any of them, so chances are I'll completely lose touch with all of them, and given the moment it sucks cuz I'm not really sure how many real friends I have and that specific gym was something I really looked forward to for the social interaction (and its been quite some time since I've had "a girl", but that's another story)
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: mike.1283 on February 17, 2011, 03:01:08 pm
And just to mention, before I had this job I'm in now I spent about 8+ months searching for a job, before that I had technically bounced from job to job, making me "un-reliable" in the eyes of hiring managers (laid off/terminated December '09/December '08, when I got those specific jobs in July of that year), I also don't neccassarily "look" the part of a trainer, and I just read online somewhere that 55% of hiring managers will hire based on appearance 1st and foremost, so at this point I'm thrilled to have a job.  BUT if there were an 'entry level' 9 to 5 job out there for someone with a Sports Management Bachelors degree than I would certainly take a look at it.  At that point I would just give up on being a trainer and go back to my fat ass ways (haha?)
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on February 24, 2011, 12:25:02 am
Im sick now.....QUARANTINE ADARQ

 :ninja: :ninja: :ninja:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on February 27, 2011, 12:15:38 pm

 i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else 

She decided today we shouldn't meet each other for some time, because she says she told me we can only be friends and i don't get it and i'm showing her my true feelings like we're together, although she said she's not attracted to me.
Until now i was only getting angry and so on, but right now i'm not even angry anymore, i'm just depressed and that's it, it was hard already watching her every now and then like the forbidden fruit, but now, not being able to talk at all, pure sadness.
And again, the fact that THIS^ for me is a problem while people are killed with stones for their belief, or die of famine sadeness me even further.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on February 27, 2011, 12:28:31 pm

 i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else

She decided today we shouldn't meet each other for some time, because she says she told me we can only be friends and i don't get it and i'm showing her my true feelings like we're together, although she said she's not attracted to me.
Until now i was only getting angry and so on, but right now i'm not even angry anymore, i'm just depressed and that's it, it was hard already watching her every now and then like the forbidden fruit, but now, not being able to talk at all, pure sadness.
And again, the fact that THIS^ for me is a problem while people are killed with stones for their belief, or die of famine sadeness me even further.

+1 for acknowledging the irony of American depression.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: mike.1283 on February 27, 2011, 03:31:52 pm
Damn we got a good amount of depression and sickness going on in this here thread.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on February 27, 2011, 04:29:24 pm
It's nice that I don't post in here.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Flander on February 28, 2011, 07:20:17 am
A Raptor spotting.

Everyone be still less we scare it away.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on March 01, 2011, 05:13:31 pm

 i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else 

She decided today we shouldn't meet each other for some time, because she says she told me we can only be friends and i don't get it and i'm showing her my true feelings like we're together, although she said she's not attracted to me.
Until now i was only getting angry and so on, but right now i'm not even angry anymore, i'm just depressed and that's it, it was hard already watching her every now and then like the forbidden fruit, but now, not being able to talk at all, pure sadness.
And again, the fact that THIS^ for me is a problem while people are killed with stones for their belief, or die of famine sadeness me even further.

she isn't worthy of you..






and on that note, im extremely fatigued today, drained, and down on myself...  ???
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Flip on March 01, 2011, 05:59:19 pm
You need positivity like you need respect in jail. Adarq man this isn't helping, remove this topic , rly. peace
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: TheSituation on March 01, 2011, 08:00:19 pm

 i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else 

She decided today we shouldn't meet each other for some time, because she says she told me we can only be friends and i don't get it and i'm showing her my true feelings like we're together, although she said she's not attracted to me.
Until now i was only getting angry and so on, but right now i'm not even angry anymore, i'm just depressed and that's it, it was hard already watching her every now and then like the forbidden fruit, but now, not being able to talk at all, pure sadness.
And again, the fact that THIS^ for me is a problem while people are killed with stones for their belief, or die of famine sadeness me even further.

Ignore her and remove her from facebook. In 2 or 3 weeks she will be begging for you to come back and possibly want to be more than "friends", although it sounds like you are deep in the friend zone.

Never become friends with a girl you want to bang, which is basically any girl, so don't become friends with girls.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on March 01, 2011, 08:17:37 pm
my nose is so stuffy I can't breathe

brb cutting nose
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on March 03, 2011, 09:23:37 pm
I hate days when you get distracted in one tiny thing and time goes by then you fail to finish original task on time and all other tasks are backed up and you feel depressed and then mad at urself and just say fuck it screw training and later on you get mad at urself for doing it and the cycle continues until one day you say, fuck it, and vow to finish all work tomorrow, but tomorrow comes and same shit happens and...and..and...

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I IZ NOT ALPHA!!!!!!!@@@@@@
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Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on March 03, 2011, 11:14:30 pm
Today I was basically told my heart is unstable. (or some other shit like that. read my journal) I'm upset.

Add to that I just found out the girl who was supposed to accompany me for a solo in a region festival in front of judges backed out on me. I have yet to get anything less than superior ratings at region or state levels (not even a I-, always I's), I don't plan on making this my first year. Backed out my because she's upset over something. (probably over something I asked yesterday that she's being overly sensitive about. Nothing anyone would ever get upset over.... ever)

Now I have to find an accompanist who can learn the part in 12 days. That or convince the girl to be reasonable and talk to me about whatever's going through her head. She has to talk to me anyway, she has the sheet music.


Now I'm too upset to even work on a little project on blender.

DAMN I feel like running. I'll settle for a shower and sleep for now.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on March 05, 2011, 04:04:32 pm
she isn't worthy of you..

You're right, and JC is right too. I needed this "alone-week" so i can get sense back to me, and doing everything i've been doing for the past 10 years, without any girl-contact. It's been great, and i'm over everything, pr-ing, and jumping 40 inches sub-maximally. Hopefully i won't post again in the emo thread very soon
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on March 05, 2011, 06:20:21 pm

 i'm in love with a girl that's friends with me and said we can't be anything more than friends, but i still talk to her daily hoping that maybe in 3-4 months it'll turn into something else 

She decided today we shouldn't meet each other for some time, because she says she told me we can only be friends and i don't get it and i'm showing her my true feelings like we're together, although she said she's not attracted to me.
Until now i was only getting angry and so on, but right now i'm not even angry anymore, i'm just depressed and that's it, it was hard already watching her every now and then like the forbidden fruit, but now, not being able to talk at all, pure sadness.
And again, the fact that THIS^ for me is a problem while people are killed with stones for their belief, or die of famine sadeness me even further.

Ignore her and remove her from facebook. In 2 or 3 weeks she will be begging for you to come back and possibly want to be more than "friends", although it sounds like you are deep in the friend zone.

Never become friends with a girl you want to bang, which is basically any girl, so don't become friends with girls.

Couldn't have said it better. But I don't think (I know) Nightfly's target is just to fuck her, it's to get "close" with her or whatever.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Jard on March 21, 2011, 05:25:32 am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B8ISzf2pryI

@ ALL of you.

 :'(

Edit: except JC, dude knows his stuff.
Jerk off, move on, cmon son.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on April 17, 2011, 02:32:42 pm
There's this thing bugging me about athletes in general. Why a lot of professional athletes, almost everyone from the places i've been training at, considers training like a sort of a job or something. They all need their coach to tell them they only have one more sprint/jump/squat to do and they finish. Why for them after the "hard work" they can relax and entertain themselves (clubs, women, drinking, etc). I hate this kind of approach to training and sports as a whole. For me there's nothing that gives me more pleasure in the world than training. I'm sad when i finish my workout because i hate leaving the facility and going to the pc, so that's why i always wonder about these people and question their dedication...  :rant:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on April 17, 2011, 03:33:48 pm
Yeah me too, I hate so much when I have to waste time jerking off to porn. I mean, heck, that drains a lot of energy from me. And it's not sanitary.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on April 27, 2011, 06:34:31 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHmvkRoEowc
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on April 28, 2011, 10:13:14 am
There's this thing bugging me about athletes in general. Why a lot of professional athletes, almost everyone from the places i've been training at, considers training like a sort of a job or something. They all need their coach to tell them they only have one more sprint/jump/squat to do and they finish. Why for them after the "hard work" they can relax and entertain themselves (clubs, women, drinking, etc). I hate this kind of approach to training and sports as a whole. For me there's nothing that gives me more pleasure in the world than training. I'm sad when i finish my workout because i hate leaving the facility and going to the pc, so that's why i always wonder about these people and question their dedication...  :rant:

yeah that's cause it IS their job. once it becomes your responsibility to your boss to train hard and be in the best shape possible so you can drill for hours or work out for hours, whether you've had a good day or a shitty day or whether you got enough sleep or not or whatever, i can imagine it stops being so fun. no doubt pro athletes still have a lot of fun, but a job is a job. sometimes it sucks, you don't want to do it and/or you need a break from it. and i bet there are some pro athletes who wake up every day and just can't wait to get training or playing just because they love it so much. same as with lots of jobs: some people simply cannot wait to wake up the next day and start saving lives in the ER and some people would rather read a book sometimes but being an ER doctor is their job. both people have to show up and do work, but one person only loves it sometimes, or never loves it at all.

long-winded way of saying: a job is a job.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on April 28, 2011, 05:04:37 pm
I agree^^^
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Nightfly on April 28, 2011, 05:14:37 pm


yeah that's cause it IS their job. once it becomes your responsibility to your boss to train hard and be in the best shape possible so you can drill for hours or work out for hours, whether you've had a good day or a shitty day or whether you got enough sleep or not or whatever, i can imagine it stops being so fun. no doubt pro athletes still have a lot of fun, but a job is a job. sometimes it sucks, you don't want to do it and/or you need a break from it. and i bet there are some pro athletes who wake up every day and just can't wait to get training or playing just because they love it so much. same as with lots of jobs: some people simply cannot wait to wake up the next day and start saving lives in the ER and some people would rather read a book sometimes but being an ER doctor is their job. both people have to show up and do work, but one person only loves it sometimes, or never loves it at all.

long-winded way of saying: a job is a job.

Yeah, but the difference is a normal job can be done without 100% motivation daily. I mean i can still do taxes although i'm nagging about that, BUT you will never be an olympic athlete if you don't train hard every day. Imagine that training for me and a lot of guys on this forum is not the job that keeps us alive, but even though i want or don't want to train on a certain day i'll go and give my best. Today for example i felt bad going to the track/gym, but in the end i focused getting 12 reps /w 220lbs while my max number of reps at this weight until today was 10...
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on April 29, 2011, 01:13:53 am
There's this thing bugging me about athletes in general. Why a lot of professional athletes, almost everyone from the places i've been training at, considers training like a sort of a job or something. They all need their coach to tell them they only have one more sprint/jump/squat to do and they finish. Why for them after the "hard work" they can relax and entertain themselves (clubs, women, drinking, etc). I hate this kind of approach to training and sports as a whole. For me there's nothing that gives me more pleasure in the world than training. I'm sad when i finish my workout because i hate leaving the facility and going to the pc, so that's why i always wonder about these people and question their dedication...  :rant:

yeah that's cause it IS their job. once it becomes your responsibility to your boss to train hard and be in the best shape possible so you can drill for hours or work out for hours, whether you've had a good day or a shitty day or whether you got enough sleep or not or whatever, i can imagine it stops being so fun. no doubt pro athletes still have a lot of fun, but a job is a job. sometimes it sucks, you don't want to do it and/or you need a break from it. and i bet there are some pro athletes who wake up every day and just can't wait to get training or playing just because they love it so much. same as with lots of jobs: some people simply cannot wait to wake up the next day and start saving lives in the ER and some people would rather read a book sometimes but being an ER doctor is their job. both people have to show up and do work, but one person only loves it sometimes, or never loves it at all.

long-winded way of saying: a job is a job.


save it for the motivational thread!  :pissed: :pissed:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on May 04, 2011, 07:55:40 pm
motivation went out the window to go to the gym today and it's because of stupid weak-minded decisions on my part. don't need to get into too much detail but i'm pissed at myself about it. i'm okay about going to the gym and i work hard when when i'm there, but i need to be more consistent and committed on the day-to-day. life gets in the way and whatnot and i've got issues that some of the younger or less-attached people on here don't, but that's some bullllllshit as far as excuses go. i need to just sack the fuck up and get after it, and instead i'm not. today, anyway.

but today is yesterday's tomorrow, or whatever that cliche is. tonight i'll get in some more rollering and stretching but that is NOT what i planned and NOT all i should be doing today.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on May 05, 2011, 12:21:15 am
motivation went out the window to go to the gym today and it's because of stupid weak-minded decisions on my part. don't need to get into too much detail but i'm pissed at myself about it. i'm okay about going to the gym and i work hard when when i'm there, but i need to be more consistent and committed on the day-to-day. life gets in the way and whatnot and i've got issues that some of the younger or less-attached people on here don't, but that's some bullllllshit as far as excuses go. i need to just sack the fuck up and get after it, and instead i'm not. today, anyway.

but today is yesterday's tomorrow, or whatever that cliche is. tonight i'll get in some more rollering and stretching but that is NOT what i planned and NOT all i should be doing today.

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Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on May 05, 2011, 09:29:37 am
exactly, that's exactly the billboard i was thinking of.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on May 18, 2011, 03:15:58 pm
Low vert today... for some reason I just think I'm wasting my time. I mean, I know I did a good volume of SO CALLED strength work yesterday, but really, how can a 80 kg bar feel so heavy? And how can I suck so much today after just two sets of 80x10?

I really really really need to boost my strength levels and not get injured.

I don't know. :uhhhfacepalm:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on September 06, 2011, 08:39:23 am
groin is scaring me, i think it was from those weighted vest sprints.. calfs are really sore, and i have to land some dunks for $$ today.

EMO.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: aiir on September 12, 2011, 07:02:17 pm
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Title: the-emo-thread-when-you-have-depressing-weak-things-to-say-say-em-here
Post by: darqbot on April 22, 2012, 04:07:51 am
darqbot message from ADARQUI:

ran 1 mile straight today. last time i trained that hard, was probably a month ago. tried chasing my dog in the park, he smoked me. *cutting*
Title: the-emo-thread-when-you-have-depressing-weak-things-to-say-say-em-here
Post by: darqbot on April 22, 2012, 04:10:05 am
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oh almost forgot, can't stop biting my fingernails lately, just destroying them. sux
Title: the-emo-thread-when-you-have-depressing-weak-things-to-say-say-em-here
Post by: darqbot on April 22, 2012, 04:28:41 am
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forever alone on adarq.org live chat, aka Efnet #jumping
Title: the-emo-thread-when-you-have-depressing-weak-things-to-say-say-em-here
Post by: darqbot on April 22, 2012, 05:21:57 am
darqbot message from ADARQUI:

tonight so emo.. got dressed, ready to go for big walk with the beast, soon as i tie shoes, starts pouring, dog sad & myself sad.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Mutumbo000 on April 22, 2012, 08:26:05 am
Self hating white guy reporting in. FML.
Title: the-emo-thread-when-you-have-depressing-weak-things-to-say-say-em-here
Post by: darqbot on April 26, 2012, 03:38:28 am
darqbot message from ADARQ:

my legs felt really good all day, kind of bouncy/springy.. why is this emo you ask? because it reminds me somewhat of how my legs used to feel when i worked out. now a 1 mile run is enough to 'stim' me.. sad, lmfaomfaofmao
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 01, 2013, 01:48:37 am
I NEED TO FUCKING WORK OUT.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on February 06, 2013, 01:47:49 am
>Be 20
>Get close to girl friend of same age
>She knows you'd be interested in a relationship
>Isn't interested in anyone due to previous experiences
>Still appreciates friendship
>Lets go of past and decides to date others
>Starts dating 27 year old friend

FUCK THAT SHIT


Where's my food?

Edit: downvote all you want (or upvote, I don't care). I'm upset with myself too. I should know better than to get attached to anyone by now. I deserve that.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on February 06, 2013, 09:54:31 am
>Be 20
>Get close to girl friend of same age
>She knows you'd be interested in a relationship
>Isn't interested in anyone due to previous experiences
>Still appreciates friendship
>Lets go of past and decides to date others
>Starts dating 27 year old friend

FUCK THAT SHIT


Where's my food?

Edit: downvote all you want (or upvote, I don't care). I'm upset with myself too. I should know better than to get attached to anyone by now. I deserve that.

go to monkey isl4nd dot lylemcd0nald dot com (numbers are letters because lyle gets pissed when you link the site from outside). search "nice guys cupid". click on the thread called "nice guys of ok cupid". learn about yourself.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 07, 2013, 06:12:03 am
I NEED TO FUCKING WORK OUT.

^^
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on February 08, 2013, 12:16:06 am
>Be 20
>Get close to girl friend of same age
>She knows you'd be interested in a relationship
>Isn't interested in anyone due to previous experiences
>Still appreciates friendship
>Lets go of past and decides to date others
>Starts dating 27 year old friend

FUCK THAT SHIT


Where's my food?

Edit: downvote all you want (or upvote, I don't care). I'm upset with myself too. I should know better than to get attached to anyone by now. I deserve that.

go to monkey isl4nd dot lylemcd0nald dot com (numbers are letters because lyle gets pissed when you link the site from outside). search "nice guys cupid". click on the thread called "nice guys of ok cupid". learn about yourself.

That article is nothing new to me. I already made basically the same observations about guys I know. I'm not upset about being "friendzoned" or rejected, I'm mostly upset at myself for having unreasonable expectations when know better than to become attached to people. I'm getting over it though, so it's all good.

Edit: BUT... I do greatly appreciate the reminder to not act like a little bitch. Your posts are always helpful.  :highfive:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on February 13, 2013, 10:08:20 am
you've made that observation about guys you know? is one of those guys yourself? because what you described, without knowing any of the details, sounds exactly like what happens in that thread. it does you no good to be mad at yourself for getting attached. and expecting a girl to want to have sex with you is not "unreasonable". sometimes those expectations will be met and sometimes not, but if you think it's "unreasonable" to expect that someone would want to have sex with you you're handicapping yourself pretty badly. 
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on February 13, 2013, 11:47:27 pm
I don't think that's unreasonable at all, except for I was never expecting sex. By unreasonable expectations I meant any sort of relationship because I basically knew she wasn't interested in anything early on. Doesn't really matter because I'm over it, but what I was most upset about was that I heard the exact words "I plan on being single for a long time" and then this chick starts dating this guy. Not even worth my worries.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 23, 2013, 07:25:12 pm
I CAN'T STOP COUGHING.

I'VE BEEN SICK SINCE LAST THURSDAY. I COUGH, NON STOP.

MEDICINE HELPS FOR A FEW HOURS, THEN BACK TO COUGHING.. THIS MEDICINE IS 12 HOUR RELIEF TOO.

FUCK.
 :raging:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: seifullaah73 on February 23, 2013, 07:34:07 pm
I CAN'T STOP COUGHING.

I'VE BEEN SICK SINCE LAST THURSDAY. I COUGH, NON STOP.

MEDICINE HELPS FOR A FEW HOURS, THEN BACK TO COUGHING.. THIS MEDICINE IS 12 HOUR RELIEF TOO.

FUCK.
 :raging:

You could either try a spoon full of honey, or hot milk and turmeric mixture you can add honey with it if you want.
This is a good antibiotic.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on February 23, 2013, 08:04:03 pm
I CAN'T STOP COUGHING.

I'VE BEEN SICK SINCE LAST THURSDAY. I COUGH, NON STOP.

MEDICINE HELPS FOR A FEW HOURS, THEN BACK TO COUGHING.. THIS MEDICINE IS 12 HOUR RELIEF TOO.

FUCK.
 :raging:

Green tea. Honey with lime
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 24, 2013, 06:24:20 pm
ive been downing tons of green tea.


seems like ibuprofen has helped my cough more than anything, it's weird.

my nose drips blood if i lean over. my lungs are probably bleeding.

LOLOLOL

:D

doing a bit better today though.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on February 24, 2013, 10:37:14 pm
ibuprofen is an NSAID. maybe it just reduced the inflammation in your bronchi (bronchitis literally just means inflamed bronchi). hence, less coughing.

note: not sure if that's actually true. just a surmise.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 25, 2013, 12:01:54 pm
ibuprofen is an NSAID. maybe it just reduced the inflammation in your bronchi (bronchitis literally just means inflamed bronchi). hence, less coughing.

note: not sure if that's actually true. just a surmise.

yup, i was thinking something similar.. it def has a positive effect, there's something to it.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on March 28, 2013, 03:42:56 am
forgot why i stopped using virtualization programs on my laptop..... hard reminder, hard drive errors.

fml

 :raging:
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Mutumbo000 on May 17, 2013, 11:51:38 pm
 :raging:
Life just fuking with me atm. I havn't had much motivation to train or anything even before this injury a few weeks ago. My gf takes up lots of my time and just dealing with trying to start a career so it's been hard for me to find the motivation to go to the gym. It's like I went to uni for 4 years got my degree with honors and ended up getting reasonable grades as well (mainly credits and distinctions), yet I can't find a fkn job. So all year I've been working full time in this meat factory and it's not that I think I'm 2 good to work in a factory or anything like that but it's just that I spent 4 years and a HECS debt getting an education and all for what- to fkn spend hours and hours each day fkn cleaning machines and dishes and bullshit like that. Get treated like shit at work and I'm sik of having an old car but I get paid fkn minimum wage so I can't afford a better 1. It's like a young person ain't shit. I'm sick of all of this bullshit and people telling me to be positive. How am I meant to be postive when I don't see shit positive?

Anyway back to drinking my Guiness since I can't fkn train or anything due to a stress fracture in my foot
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on May 18, 2013, 07:21:10 am
You need to keep searching for a better job, a job that is suited to your studies.

When I first worked I worked in a supermarket carrying boxes around, having a Computer Science diploma, for ~100 euros per month. So... there ya have it.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Mutumbo000 on May 18, 2013, 06:17:16 pm
Yeah true my life just got even worse last night. I had an argument with my girlfriend so I caught up with some of my old friends and went to a party and just made the dumb choice to drive. Got pulled over by the cops and as soon as I got pulled over I was just thinking "I'm fuked". Ended up blowing 0.075 when the limit is 0.050 in Aus so now I've lost my licensce and got a $1500 fine as well. Coz I don't have a licensce now I can't get to work so I'm just going to quit. Whenever you think life is going bad there's always some way it seems to get worse.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on May 18, 2013, 06:43:22 pm
Yeah true my life just got even worse last night. I had an argument with my girlfriend so I caught up with some of my old friends and went to a party and just made the dumb choice to drive. Got pulled over by the cops and as soon as I got pulled over I was just thinking "I'm fuked". Ended up blowing 0.075 when the limit is 0.050 in Aus so now I've lost my licensce and got a $1500 fine as well. Coz I don't have a licensce now I can't get to work so I'm just going to quit. Whenever you think life is going bad there's always some way it seems to get worse.

That is not true. There might be a silver lining in that. The last time I got fired I felt terrible but in reality that was the kick in the butt I needed at that point to do something better... got hired on a salary 1.5 times bigger after that and in a MUCH better environment, and it went up from that point on.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Mutumbo000 on October 29, 2013, 07:29:04 am
Drowning my sorrows right now unemployed on welfare. On the dole and the bottle is my only escape.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on October 29, 2013, 07:39:28 am
Drowning my sorrows right now unemployed on welfare. On the dole and the bottle is my only escape.

Or actually learning stuff as you have some free time should be your only escape, and getting better.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Mutumbo000 on October 29, 2013, 08:24:47 am
Drowning my sorrows right now unemployed on welfare. On the dole and the bottle is my only escape.

Or actually learning stuff as you have some free time should be your only escape, and getting better.

All the shit I need to learn you learn on the job.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Mutumbo000 on October 29, 2013, 08:32:49 am
I mean I already wasted 4 years of my life doing a fkn Business degree that I'm never going to use and isn't even worth the paper that's it's written on. All the mandatory courses that I got to do for my construction are just fkn common sense but the Government and greedy training organisations just make you do them otherwise you can't go on site.

Quick we better get some more 457 visas and tonnes of immigrants out because we've got a 'skills shortage' meanwhile there are tens of thousands of perfectly capable people like me just sitting around doing fuck all because nobody will hire you without experience because nobody wants to train their fkn workers these days. Oh we'll just leave it to 'training organisations'. Same as recruitment. Oh we'll just leave it to 'recruitment agencies'. Than they wonder why our country is going to the dogs.

I mean it's just frustrating I've been working ever since I was 15. Fast food, retail, construction, manufacturing, you name it I've probably done it all the shit jobs. I got great marks at school got a degree with Honours but despite all my work nobody will give me a chance to start a career because I have no experience in office environments but how can you get experience when nobody will give you a job!?

Now I'm starting from the bottom trying to get into another industry, which once again is all about 'who you know' and not what you know. I'm going to relocate to where all the jobs are once I get my car back, which will increase my chances. I'm not trying to bitch and complain I'm just explaining where all my frustration is coming from...

As I seen recently on another forum that sums it up perfectly.

With all the threads regarding the stiff competition for while collar jobs and how hard it is to make decent coin without years of experience in white collar industries, I have been compelled to start this thread.

In my view, the supply demand equation no longer favours people with degrees. There are too many people with degrees, and not a lot of change in the number of jobs that require these degrees. The previous government removing the cap on university places hasn't helped with the situation either.

I believe we are way too overeducated and overqualified for the vast majority of jobs, and this is leading to a generation of frustrated young people who were mislead into thinking that uni is the best way to a highly paid future. It is no longer the case, uni grads are often struggling with low paid, often not that highly skilled work.

The government's crazy aim of getting more people with uni degrees is a terrible idea. It is leading to increasing frustrations amongst people, fighting to jobs, HUGE HECS debts and just a normal, mediocre job at the end, and will take years and years to make decent coin.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 15, 2016, 05:10:43 pm
i used to have so much fun programming. not so much lately (last 6 months). I have to force myself to focus & code. Not good. It's a problem considering it's a good way for me to make decent $$.

dno
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on February 16, 2016, 07:01:13 am
i used to have so much fun programming. not so much lately (last 6 months). I have to force myself to focus & code. Not good. It's a problem considering it's a good way for me to make decent $$.

dno

You tell me! I'm currently learning Python (doing an MIT course which is very difficult) and Java&Android SDK. It's imperative for me to continue with this or I'll kind of be out of options.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 16, 2016, 08:28:16 am
i used to have so much fun programming. not so much lately (last 6 months). I have to force myself to focus & code. Not good. It's a problem considering it's a good way for me to make decent $$.

dno

You tell me! I'm currently learning Python (doing an MIT course which is very difficult) and Java&Android SDK.

nice! i remember when learning programming languages was the most fun thing in the world.

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It's imperative for me to continue with this or I'll kind of be out of options.

damn. :/
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: seifullaah73 on February 16, 2016, 08:54:44 am
i used to have so much fun programming. not so much lately (last 6 months). I have to force myself to focus & code. Not good. It's a problem considering it's a good way for me to make decent $$.

dno

You tell me! I'm currently learning Python (doing an MIT course which is very difficult) and Java&Android SDK.

nice! i remember when learning programming languages was the most fun thing in the world.

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It's imperative for me to continue with this or I'll kind of be out of options.

damn. :/

same, learning programming languages was fun, but there is no fun in learning the new ones, i still love learning c, c++, python is not as fun, matlab is ok.
but it gets hard when it gets very technical.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on February 16, 2016, 09:10:49 am
Well... it depends what you mean by "learning".

The truth is that these days the job offers ask for way too much stuff.

Here to hire as an Android Developer you need to know Java SE, the Android SDK, XML, HTTP, REST, Soap, SQLite, Agile Methodologies, SVN/GitHub, Web Services and a ton of other stuff.

Other offers for Java EE for banking applications require a list way too long for me to mention here.

Where the fuck do you develop that experience if nobody wants to hire and teach you/give you an environment to actually learn and apply all that stuff. It's impossible to do from home/it takes way too much time to get good at it.

I've been at over 30 interviews so far and I'm scheduled to go on two more these days. I've even offered to sign a clause that I won't leave the company if they invest in me (although I always tell them I don't do that shit, if they invest time and resources in me they will get more back, I explicitly tell them that).

So yeah... way too much stuff
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: seifullaah73 on February 16, 2016, 09:15:02 am
Well... it depends what you mean by "learning".

The truth is that these days the job offers ask for way too much stuff.

Here to hire as an Android Developer you need to know Java SE, the Android SDK, XML, HTTP, REST, Soap, SQLite, Agile Methodologies, SVN/GitHub, Web Services and a ton of other stuff.

Other offers for Java EE for banking applications require a list way too long for me to mention here.

Where the fuck do you develop that experience if nobody wants to hire and teach you/give you an environment to actually learn and apply all that stuff. It's impossible to do from home/it takes way too much time to get good at it.

I've been at over 30 interviews so far and I'm scheduled to go on two more these days. I've even offered to sign a clause that I won't leave the company if they invest in me (although I always tell them I don't do that shit, if they invest time and resources in me they will get more back, I explicitly tell them that).

So yeah... way too much stuff

wow, yeah i know exactly what you mean. a c# web developer needs to have the following.

    Knowledge of C# and ASP.NET
    Be familiar with SQL Server
    A good understanding of ASP.NET MVC
    HTML, CSS, JQuery, JavaScript, AJAX, and LINQ
    Source control knowledge - TFS

I have even seen graduate job asking for more technical knowledge in programming then the learning scope.
I did c# but they want it at the next level.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on February 16, 2016, 12:19:44 pm
Another example:

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The job's daily activities include design, development, maintenance and integration of business applications. C# will be the usual programming language, Visual Studio - the development environment and Microsoft SQL Server - the data storage engine.

Responsibilities:
•   Building new systems with ASP.MVC , ASP.NET , SQL Server 2008/ 2012, EntityFramework and Linq
•   Developing new functionality on our existing software products
•   Leading/mentoring IT staff and sharing knowledge through knowledge-sharing presentations
•   Participating in a small, experienced, energetic development team
Requirements:
•   Solid knowledge of C# and .NET Framework, OOP concepts, algorithms and data structures – minimum 4 years of experience
•   Web development experience (ASP.MVC ,ASP.NET, Java script, AJAX, CSS, JSON, JQUERY); - minimum 4 years of experience
•   Very good knowledge of T-SQL and relational database design; - minimum 4 years of experience
•   Graduate of Computer Science/Cybernetics/Information Technology/Electronics College
•   Fluent in English
•   Ability and willingness to work as part of a team of developers
•   Learning oriented person
Additional advantage:
•   Active Reports, SQL Reporting Services
•   Java & Install Shield knowledge
•   Active Directory knowledge
•   Knowledge of WCF Web Services, WCF Data Services
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on February 17, 2016, 07:03:36 am
they love to just throw everything in the "requirements soup". what's funny is, if you interview at some of these same jobs, you can end up getting it if you lack several requirements. sometimes it's just a big joke :f
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on February 17, 2016, 03:01:43 pm
they love to just throw everything in the "requirements soup". what's funny is, if you interview at some of these same jobs, you can end up getting it if you lack several requirements. sometimes it's just a big joke :f

Then they come in and say "we can't give you the salary you requested - you lack so many skills that we just require. Here's 200 euros/month and be happy that you got hired!"
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on February 17, 2016, 03:06:43 pm
By the way - went to a job interview today.

After we had the HR meeting, which went really well, I had my technical test with one guy from there. I just nailed it, was so fluent with my answers, I did pretty much all of it. In OOP I did everything right, the Android SDK part it was more difficult.

Then another woman from "sales" came, which was a bitch, and said "you asked for way too much money, you basically have ZERO experience". I'm like "no, not really, I have worked 7 and a half years as a graphic designer, that means some company thought I am good at what I do and kept me, that's not "ZERO" experience" + she hasn't looked at my portfolio (which includes Android and Java applications) and then she started complaining that I asked too much money, 600-700 euros/month.

I told them they are very far away from me, so I'll be wasting 1 hour to come to work and another to get back + the hours at the job - I'd end up using 10+ hours of my life every day for them.

Anyway, they are crazy. They (at least that woman) wants to just use people as slaves for as little money as possible (like any amoral corporation would do) so they hire young guys, give them a crap salary and away they go being a "successful company with ambitious goals". Fuck'em.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on February 17, 2016, 03:58:58 pm
700 euros per month for a full-time job? isn't that like half romania's national per capita income? i.e. poverty wages? or is the job part-time?
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on February 17, 2016, 04:08:59 pm
No, that's a big salary.

The minimum salary here is ~200 euros per month. 700 is "a lot". In this field though (IT, mobile development etc) it's about right. But they can get younger guys for much less and they can also abuse them :D

Some young guys that finish college now already demand 1000+ euros, with no experience, though.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on March 14, 2016, 11:48:54 pm
Few weeks ago I got dumped by a girl I'd been seeing for a few weeks because, no joke here: My life was perfect or close to it, and hers has been far from and I wouldn't be able to relate to her, and she wouldn't be accepted by my family down the road, and I haven't been in any serious relationships and I was just this young optimistic person who needed to go fall in love with someone and have lots of babies and live happily ever after.

WTF. Don't know if that's emo, or if I am for being put down by that. I'm in a vicious circle with relationships I swear. It's like the classic fresh out of college dilemma, need a job to get experience but need experience to get a job. Thought that could have gone really well too. Sheeeiiiiit.

Anyway, had to get that out of my system. Still trying to just get over it.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on March 15, 2016, 07:48:55 am
educated guess: she's just not that into you and was trying to let you down in a nice if slightly awkward/immature way. whatever, there are many fish, and you're not going to match with most of them. i've had the "i'm too into you, you're too good for me" line used on me before, although it was in college. just meant that chick wasn't feeling it, and that's okay. her loss.

that said, getting dumped sucks. i feel you.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on March 15, 2016, 04:25:55 pm
That's totally fair, and that's kinda what I had assumed. She actually really has had it pretty rough in the past, but it's ridiculous to flip it back on me if she's just not interested when everyone I've ever been out with I've been up front with about just being honest.

Thanks for the empathy though. Actually helps. Oh well, more lifting motivation. Gonna just go back to focusing on lifting and getting my project car up here and presentable instead of trying to date for a while.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on March 15, 2016, 07:03:10 pm
That's what always happens: they fuck with other retards that either dump them or cheat on them, and when you come up with the best of intentions and want something serious, they dump all they accumulated with those fuckers on you, or they get scared when they realize you're actually serious and you're displaying that seriousness, whereas in the past they had to guess if the guys they've been with were serious.

"Oh he's more introverted (speaking about their former guys)"
"I wonder what he's thinking..."
"He doesn't seem that into me..."
"Oh fuck, he cheated on me!" (who saw that coming?)

And then they come in and dump that on your serious and completely positive intentions. Women are fucking idiots.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: John Stamos on March 15, 2016, 07:29:15 pm
That's what always happens: they fuck with other retards that either dump them or cheat on them, and when you come up with the best of intentions and want something serious, they dump all they accumulated with those fuckers on you, or they get scared when they realize you're actually serious and you're displaying that seriousness, whereas in the past they had to guess if the guys they've been with were serious.

"Oh he's more introverted (speaking about their former guys)"
"I wonder what he's thinking..."
"He doesn't seem that into me..."
"Oh fuck, he cheated on me!" (who saw that coming?)

And then they come in and dump that on your serious and completely positive intentions. Women are fucking idiots.

if I could hit the up arrow on this comment 1000x I would.

I hate the "I got cheated on so I cant trust anyone anymore" line....If you hear that then run.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: gukl on March 15, 2016, 07:42:23 pm
never noticed this thread before, i'll jump.

had an on-off with high school sweet heart, just over ~ 4 years. there were other people involved, both sides on multiple occasions...both during on and off periods. more on her part, mine were always reactionary. still kept getting back together, even though it was toxic as fuck. i was basically addicted to her, sad. anyway we were talking of kinda being together and stuff, and i was already having to really persuade myself after all the toxicity, then she seemed to think it was cool to go on a full daytrip with some guy from tinder. so i ended it all right there and then, all contact. blocked on fb etc. she's still friends with my sister, they went out together last week which is awkward. probably gonna see her at some point. probably gonna see her move on before i do too, which im already worrying about..wtf? i expected her to try contact me more than she has so, that was upsetting too. which i hate myself for, because i shouldn't care.

anyway it's not been as bad as i thought, or as bad as some of the other breaks but i still don't think i've fully accepted it's final now...some part of me is still like, meh it'll work out. and when it hit's me that it is done, it'll probably suck. talking to a few other girls, one canadian girl who's a little older but seems nice, yoga chick. one crazy ass girl who's like 30, she basically just wants sex but im being a bitch about it and haven't gone through yet, tbh 80% of the time i don't care about it. all from online dating of course, im still too much of a bitch to speak to girls in real life. i definitely picked some insecurity issues up following all this, again, need to stop being a bitch.

so that's my story, pretty trivial compared to most of yours and i'm incredibly priviledged that this is the only emotional burden i've ever really had. (even if it has been 4 years of (self inflicted) suck (interspersed with some incredible experience and passionate moments). ahhh, was good to write it all out.

oh, i just read mark mansons book 'models', the best thing i've ever read on relationships/dating/women. read it.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: John Stamos on March 15, 2016, 07:48:52 pm
never noticed this thread before, i'll jump.

had an on-off with high school sweet heart, just over ~ 4 years. there were other people involved, both sides on multiple occasions...both during on and off periods. more on her part, mine were always reactionary. still kept getting back together, even though it was toxic as fuck. i was basically addicted to her, sad. anyway we were talking of kinda being together and stuff, and i was already having to really persuade myself after all the toxicity, then she seemed to think it was cool to go on a full daytrip with some guy from tinder. so i ended it all right there and then, all contact. blocked on fb etc. she's still friends with my sister, they went out together last week which is awkward. probably gonna see her at some point. probably gonna see her move on before i do too, which im already worrying about..wtf? i expected her to try contact me more than she has so, that was upsetting too. which i hate myself for, because i shouldn't care.

anyway it's not been as bad as i thought, or as bad as some of the other breaks but i still don't think i've fully accepted it's final now...some part of me is still like, meh it'll work out. and when it hit's me that it is done, it'll probably suck. talking to a few other girls, one canadian girl who's a little older but seems nice, yoga chick. one crazy ass girl who's like 30, she basically just wants sex but im being a bitch about it and haven't gone through yet, tbh 80% of the time i don't care about it. all from online dating of course, im still too much of a bitch to speak to girls in real life. i definitely picked some insecurity issues up following all this, again, need to stop being a bitch.

so that's my story, pretty trivial compared to most of yours and i'm incredibly priviledged that this is the only emotional burden i've ever really had. (even if it has been 4 years of (self inflicted) suck (interspersed with some incredible experience and passionate moments). ahhh, was good to write it all out.

oh, i just read mark mansons book 'models', the best thing i've ever read on relationships/dating/women. read it.

When talking to one of them just keep the conversation about them, it will show that you're interested even if you aren't and girls love to talk about themselves so you can sit back and pretty much just listen to them yap away.  I personally would go for the 30 something year old that just wants sex and bang it out until you get used to being around other chikas and then go for the other ones that you like.  It may sound bad but if she just wants to get boned then throw her one.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: John Stamos on March 15, 2016, 07:51:17 pm
I have no women so i'm learning 8 hours per day for exams and masturbating three-four times in between those hours to keep myself from entering deep depression

Great post, set yourself free.

I'm laughing so hard at this that people are looking at me funny
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: gukl on March 15, 2016, 07:56:52 pm
oh and THIS:

http://markmanson.net/worst-moments-of-your-life

cracked me up a few times and helps put things in perspective. in fact just the read made me feel good about my life.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: gukl on March 15, 2016, 07:59:30 pm

When talking to one of them just keep the conversation about them, it will show that you're interested even if you aren't and girls love to talk about themselves so you can sit back and pretty much just listen to them yap away.  I personally would go for the 30 something year old that just wants sex and bang it out until you get used to being around other chikas and then go for the other ones that you like.  It may sound bad but if she just wants to get boned then throw her one.

hm i dunno, i think she's fucking crazy. and there's the whole thing about never put your dick in crazy. i may meet her for coffee and see how crazy she is.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: John Stamos on March 15, 2016, 08:05:51 pm

When talking to one of them just keep the conversation about them, it will show that you're interested even if you aren't and girls love to talk about themselves so you can sit back and pretty much just listen to them yap away.  I personally would go for the 30 something year old that just wants sex and bang it out until you get used to being around other chikas and then go for the other ones that you like.  It may sound bad but if she just wants to get boned then throw her one.

hm i dunno, i think she's fucking crazy. and there's the whole thing about never put your dick in crazy. i may meet her for coffee and see how crazy she is.

Crazies are the way to go, the hispanic girl I was with was crazy it lead to her being crazy in bed.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: gukl on March 15, 2016, 08:11:45 pm

When talking to one of them just keep the conversation about them, it will show that you're interested even if you aren't and girls love to talk about themselves so you can sit back and pretty much just listen to them yap away.  I personally would go for the 30 something year old that just wants sex and bang it out until you get used to being around other chikas and then go for the other ones that you like.  It may sound bad but if she just wants to get boned then throw her one.

hm i dunno, i think she's fucking crazy. and there's the whole thing about never put your dick in crazy. i may meet her for coffee and see how crazy she is.

Crazies are the way to go, the hispanic girl I was with was crazy it lead to her being crazy in bed.

this girl is thai/spanish/italian, 9 years older than me, she already told me she loves anal and sent lots of interesting pictures so, i'm gonna assume she's crazy that way. i'm definitely just being a little girl about it. the majority of the time im just too busy moping over my ex to care, fucked up.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: John Stamos on March 15, 2016, 08:33:54 pm

When talking to one of them just keep the conversation about them, it will show that you're interested even if you aren't and girls love to talk about themselves so you can sit back and pretty much just listen to them yap away.  I personally would go for the 30 something year old that just wants sex and bang it out until you get used to being around other chikas and then go for the other ones that you like.  It may sound bad but if she just wants to get boned then throw her one.

hm i dunno, i think she's fucking crazy. and there's the whole thing about never put your dick in crazy. i may meet her for coffee and see how crazy she is.

Crazies are the way to go, the hispanic girl I was with was crazy it lead to her being crazy in bed.

this girl is thai/spanish/italian, 9 years older than me, she already told me she loves anal and sent lots of interesting pictures so, i'm gonna assume she's crazy that way. i'm definitely just being a little girl about it. the majority of the time im just too busy moping over my ex to care, fucked up.
.....with that combination you cant miss out on it
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: John Stamos on March 15, 2016, 09:12:21 pm
I'm depressed because I'm too racist to date a black girl. I find a lot of black girls really attractive but I always play in my mind a movie scenario of her family saying she cant date my cracker ass while the grandma faints when they find out shes dating me at the dinner table.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on March 16, 2016, 01:20:13 am
Actually depressing story that's screwed with me more than any girl problems, read only if you care to understand why I've struggled to stay motivated for a while, but the same reason I keep trying:

I took this teaching job in Washington as an opportunity. I had other job offers I turned down that on paper were better jobs, but I liked this location better and it had better opportunities for growth.

Before I applied here I applied a ton of other place including El Paso, TX where my dad's uncle lived. Closest figure I've had to a grandpa. Would visit him every summer and he was super close to my family. My grandpa died when my dad was 14 so his little brother, my dad's uncle, was the one who really brought him into adulthood and he was the best father figure my dad had all through his life. I'd been so focused on school that I haven't been back to visit in like 4 years. This summer just after I had turned down some jobs I was about to go to Mexico for the first time since before my grand uncle had not really been well and been in and out of hospitals. The day before my parents left I decided to stay in case I got this job offer, thinking I would visit him as soon as I had a longer weekend and had some cash saved up. Things were going alright.

First day I'm supposed to be teaching I'm still at the guest bedroom of the teacher I work closest with who, together with his wife, was ridiculously helpful in getting me here. Can't sleep and it's like 4am so I check my phone. I assume I was going to get a call in the morning but the first thing I saw was a public post from my dad to family on facebook saying at about 2am his uncle, who was a great example and tremendous father figure to him, had passed away.

Great way to start first day of real work in your career right?

When I was talking to my dad later when I had the chance to call him I said it was really hurting to have just taken the job. That I wished I'd turned it down and just gone to see my grand uncle. Told me it was all understandable. It was out my control. But then he said he would always ask about me when they were around, right up until the end and that really fucked me up.
Town I'm in is near some pretty cool stuff, but the town itself doesn't have much to offer for 20-somethings and my social life has been great which has made things difficult when I don't have things going on because stuff like that just comes back to me.

Not that I regret taking the job because it's been a great opportunity, but I kinda regret taking the job. Wasn't able to make the memorial service either. I'd give up the money and experience I've made a thousand times over to go back and give my uncle a big hug and get to say goodbye.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on March 16, 2016, 10:48:41 am
I'll give you my perspective: I bet he would love to know you have the job that you have right now. You should think of your success as being the hug that you think you didn't give. I know these are just words on the screen, but you should think like that. You should cherish the memories you have together.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: LBSS on March 16, 2016, 11:58:38 am
I'll give you my perspective: I bet he would love to know you have the job that you have right now. You should think of your success as being the hug that you think you didn't give. I know these are just words on the screen, but you should think like that. You should cherish the memories you have together.

+1, great post
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Zetz on March 17, 2016, 11:03:36 pm
I'll give you my perspective: I bet he would love to know you have the job that you have right now. You should think of your success as being the hug that you think you didn't give. I know these are just words on the screen, but you should think like that. You should cherish the memories you have together.

+1 for a legitimately helpful post. Thanks guys
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: gukl on March 25, 2016, 05:04:48 pm
found out she has a new boyfriend via a text to my sister. like 4weeks since we called it of for good.

+ i walked like 10 miles on basically an empty stomach today. lost all my gains.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: Raptor on May 10, 2016, 12:53:56 pm
A great reason for all women to suck a big fat cheesy knob (and why I stayed away from them for +12 years):

https://www.facebook.com/ScooterMagruder/videos/10152934573822714/?pnref=story
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: fast does lie on August 31, 2017, 04:06:12 pm
Quit smoking and vaping, work so hard last 6 months either trained or stretched everyday for 1-3 hours, finally got a chance to train/scrimmage for a bball program of some friends...... and get a position as a skills coach.

And that's when i get this "snapping hip syndrome?" bs, never had it before in my life. It's like a slap in the face, it comes and goes randomly every 5-10 minutes.

Like all of a sudden your groin will lock up and it's harder for you to extend your hips, than it goes away, than poof it'll comeback.

Makes me want to take a knife and just slice off whatever tendon that is locking my hip/groin.....

Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: adarqui on August 31, 2017, 06:17:12 pm
Quit smoking and vaping, work so hard last 6 months either trained or stretched everyday for 1-3 hours, finally got a chance to train/scrimmage for a bball program of some friends...... and get a position as a skills coach.

And that's when i get this "snapping hip syndrome?" bs, never had it before in my life. It's like a slap in the face, it comes and goes randomly every 5-10 minutes.

Like all of a sudden your groin will lock up and it's harder for you to extend your hips, than it goes away, than poof it'll comeback.

damn.

i've had some fairly serious hip injuries .. deep squatting wrecked my hip way back in 2008 or so, just kept squatting through it like a moron and got to the point where I had thoughts of needing a hip replacement ....... switched to half squats after a little bit of rest & made sure not to go deep enough to hurt it, the rest is history.

so sometimes these things can actually turn out in your favor.. try to stay positive and think about it like that.

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Makes me want to take a knife and just slice off whatever tendon that is locking my hip/groin.....

yup. like i mentioned in your journal tho, DON'T go into that self pain infliction mode.

I know alot about it, i've done it. You get so angry that you want to just train through it and will yourself to victory over it, but it's usually impossible. So just try and relax, figure out what could have caused it, try not to over stretch it & make it worse, and TRANSITION into something safe/healthy to keep your progress going.

don't let a potentially minor setback cause you to downward spiral... you never know, it could be gone within 3-7 days or so.

I ran through my knee pain a bit last February or whatever it was.. cost me ~5 months of down time. Caused real damage by running (slow/light) through it.



again, be careful not to overstretch, especially when dealing with the hips/groin/hip flexors.



also, might be a good opportunity to fuqn get ripped.

try to refocus, stay positive, and AELS.
Title: Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
Post by: fast does lie on September 05, 2017, 09:04:58 am
When I sleep well, feel strong, not sore: I usually have work or something to attend to......

When I sleep bad, feel weak, sore as fuck: I train

When I sleep good, feel strong, i am usually sore as fuck

When I sleep bad, feel weak, I am usually not sore.......

When I sleep good, feel strong, not sore, I usually have an injury......