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i'm sure that's true, about racing more frequently.

also, turns out i'm an idiot who can't do anything right and the race is next sunday. there was a different race today that i considered signing up for and ultimately decided not to because it's far away and victoria park is local. but today is the date that stuck in my head. the one i signed up for is in my calendar correctly and everything, i just didn't bother to check. lololololol, damn it. well, maybe i'll go to the hackney marshes parkrun today and try to PR anyway, given that i've tapered this week and, as adarq said, racing makes you better at racing. but then maybe it's too close to the actual target race to put forth 100% effort? maybe i'll use hackney marshes to two-mile test or 3k test as that guy recommended? idk, i'm so keyed up at this point that i think i should just get it over with and run hard. i'm overthinking it. there will be other races, if i fuck it up this week i can just try again.

 

well, i fucking did it.



- 5k race in 19:55
splits: 3:55, 4:00, 3:58, 3:58, 4:03

 

ETA: didn't print out a barcode so i won't get an official time, but that's okay. watch time actually took me past the course finish, so official time would have been a few seconds faster. incidentally, mapmyrun has a weirdly big gap between km pace and km elapsed time splits. the latter gives a time of 19:37. dunno why that would be, usually elapsed time is longer, if anything, because it accounts for stopping for road crossings. garmin site says 19:55 as well so let's go with that.

felt the pain especially between 3.5-4.5 km. pace was slowest around 3.6-3.7 but managed to surge enough that when i died in the last few hundred meters i had enough buffer to make it under the 20:00 mark. a little disappointed that i faded so badly and was slowing down at the finish but, under the circumstances -- first race in more than a year, run at all-time PR pace, at 9 AM after <7 hours of sleep -- not THAT disappointed.

crippling headache again today, starting around lunchtime. took anti-migraine meds, much self-massage, a heat patch, and a nap and have been feeling fine the last hour or so. suspicious timing coincidence, leading up to a race. i wonder if i'm subconsciously so worked up about tomorrow that it's giving me a headache. consciously, i'm nervous and i will be sad and disappointed if i don't hit my goal tomorrow. so there is -- unusually for me -- some anticipatory anxiety on the surface. but it doesn't feel that bad. or maybe i'm fooling myself and have put myself under more pressure than i want to admit?

anyway, headache's gone and unless i'm fucking catatonic tomorrow i'm going to run. deep breaths.

yup. apparently he was adarq.org member number four. don't remember if he could ever dunk, at least while he was posting on here. http://www.adarq.org/profile/?u=4