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the 150 repeat workout sounds like hell on earth.

just found out i have HSV. turns out promiscuity comes with risk, who knew! no symptoms, i went and got an STD test on monday and that's how i found out. last time i got tested, in late march, they didn't test for HSV so i got my clean sheet back and was like, great. could have gotten it before then, no way to know. but pretty sure it was in the past few months.

been reading a lot about it over the past couple hours, after my initial heart-falling-through-the-floor feeling. it turns out that the stigma around it is ridiculous. 1/5 of the people in the world have the type i have. 2/3 (!) have the other type. that's fucking common! also, it's really easy to get, like chickenpox and shingles, which it's related to. and even though it's incurable, it's actually not that bad for most people. the main bad thing that can happen is a woman getting an outbreak when she's late in pregnancy. but like i said, i'm asymptomatic; outbreaks are apparently unpleasant at worst for almost everyone who gets them and they get milder over time.

so i've gone from "FUCK" to "fuck" to "what does this mean?" to "oh, okay" in a few hours.

still, it does mean making some awkward phone calls, and a lifetime of having to talk about it with anyone i think i might be having sex with soon. i've only had unprotected sex with one person this year, but she's the one i'm most dreading talking to because she did NOT take it well when i broke things off with her a couple of weeks ago. on the other hand, she works in reproductive health so she's likeliest to understand what it actually means to have it. and anyway condoms don't reduce risk by that much.

on the plus side, i for sure don't have any other STDs. also knowing is better than not knowing. and it's good to learn about something that's so stigmatized for basically no reason.

undoubtable, the deadline thing isn't gonna work for me right now because, like t0ddday said, i'm moving to another country at some indeterminate point in the near future. plus i'll be at the beach for a week soon, friend getting married this weekend, etc. focus is hard at the moment. but it's a good idea in general, certainly helped me earlier this year.

FP i appreciate the point about needing to shift focus to another goal for a little while. you're right about that. but i think t0ddday's idea makes more sense, to pick an athletic movement or two and work on improving them while still jumping.

it is nice out and i've been enjoying going to the track with my mom so to start i think i will work on DL bounds (for max distance) and SL bounds (for proficiency, i'm terrible at them). t0ddday does that make sense to you? or maybe DL bounds and 60m sprints? part of me wants to do longer sprints (e.g. 300) but they take a lot out of me.

something like this:

sunday
- DLRVJ
- bounds and sprints

monday
- various jumps

tuesday
- bounds and sprints

wednesday
- squats and RDLs
- upper weights

thursday
- various jumps

friday
- rest

saturday
- easy DLRVJ
- easy various jumps

jabrill peppers vs. the juggs machine: https://amp.twimg.com/v/f00e1812-1a1c-47aa-ae45-2b97dc37a14f

feel really stale, motivation very low.

EDIT: stretched a little and did some pistols today. could not drag myself to the gym, which is very unusual. just feel tired.

also, my best friend getting married this weekend, which i am extremely excited about.

26 days until Michigan's defense rips Hawaii's still-beating heart of its chest and eats it raw. The D was so nasty last year until Glasgow went down. We're going to be even better this year.

I just watched this video and got so hyped at my desk I started breathing audibly.

<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5fZheB820c4" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5fZheB820c4</a>

I passed

only thing that matters

bad luck to get sick right after starting the new gig. if it makes you feel any better, my brother has MRSA in his ankle and my friend had a case of strep so bad last week that when he went to the doctor, the doctor went and got all the medical staff together to look at his throat. it literally bled. and he had a 104-degree fever.