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Says the guy that’s totally irrelevant haha. Go on insult my eye. So what. Shows what a true piece of shit you are. But you say hi when you see me. Lol. A real disgrace to the flag that you fly lol. Doesn’t surprise me. Total fake, should of known, steroid cheating cunt!

yeah and it ended up not storming last night, pissed that i didn't go. you're prob right that it's smarter not to make it up. what i think i'll do instead is long run today, skip tomorrow, then back on schedule from wednesday. the long runs are important, i think i get more out of them than the 10-11k's. this way i'll still get that in but not sacrifice a recovery day.

speaking of which, it's time to lengthen those as well. sub-50 minutes just doesn't seem like enough stimulus anymore, especially if i'm able to maintain that in the heat and humidity. will shift to 11k minimum from this week.

something else i've been musing on: i'd like to find a training partner. in normal times i'd be thinking about joining a club (as i would have done this spring in london). maybe still worth doing that just to get plugged into a little network here.

it was good, i'm glad i went. shut down a couple of intersections along the way, rallied outside the police precinct and chanted at the cops. it was pretty well organized: lots of water and snacks, medics on hand walking around with sunscreen and hand sanitizer, bikers riding ahead to block traffic, no question about who was leading (except for the chanting/singing, which got a little discombobulated). the leaders all looked like kids to me (early 20s at oldest), which is cool.

left the run too late today. conditions were brutal in the afternoon: 97/36 air temp and 75/24 dew point, so i decided to wait until after painting. then that took longer than i expected, and now there's a thunderstorm coming that i'd rather not get caught out in. might could violate my normal principle of not making up missed workouts and just do the long run tomorrow. it's not gonna kill me.

interesting. i'm sure motivation is part of it.

- warm up x 1 km; tempo x 2 km [3:53, 4:14]; cool down x .94 km
downhill-uphill out and back for the tempo. way too fast on the downhill bit, meant to dial it back because dew point is 72/22 here today. uphill bit was even a little faster than i meant to go, was shooting for ~4:20. i guess that means i'm fitter than i think? or just bad at speed regulation. idk. at any rate kept it short because of the heat.

- stretch

so, so very humid. cooling off and gonna grab lunch now and then head down to a protest march. bringing lots of water.

Are you confident that you’ll never be back there?

Too confident. No way. I’d die before I go to jail. That’s all I needed to see. And it’s different being a celebrity getting in trouble [than] a regular person getting in trouble. If I went to prison right now, I’d be lit. Prison now wouldn’t even faze me, honestly. But in my mind, I ain’t even dumb enough to think like that. I trained myself to think about how it was then. Hell nah, I’ll never go back.

Did you ever foresee rap as a path for you?

I never saw me being a rapper. A big-dog dope boy, that’s it. Not even just a dope boy. That’s why I ain’t got no tattoos, because I always knew I was going to run my money up, and I was going to have to go sit in front of some people to do something with my money. And I didn’t want them to look at me like a dope boy. I had to keep my appearance straight. I literally said, “When I sit down in front of these white folks, I don’t want to have no tattoos.” In a way, it’s still that today. Because when I’m sitting in these meetings, I don’t have tattoos on my face. I know they’d have to think something if I’ve got tattoos on my face.

Have you ever met another rapper with no tattoos?

Nope.