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wednesday

- run 32:02, 5.01 km

thursday

- run 5k, not sure of time

yesterday

- run 43:43, 7.01 km

thanks vag!

tuesday

- run 27:40, 5.30 km
felt a little run-down after the wedding, thought i was feeling better by tuesday afternoon but clearly still not great. ended up cutting this short.

today

- run 53:22, 8.08 km
very slow but wife is getting stronger, so that's good!

last night

- got married 

My sister died on 30th February 2023. I have to take a break from everything, although I might go back to the gym just to take my mind off it. She had a food addiction, she basically lived to eat, so she got heavier and fatter week by week until she was 162 kg at 1.65m tall. Her oxygen levels went as low as 60 or even in the 50s and she refused to go to the hospital (she went there a few times, the ambulance also gave her oxygen a few times).

We found her dead after Sunday's night, she died in her sleep. She was 48 years old. I sometimes think I might be going crazy, soon, although I'm trying to keep it together.

Oh man, Raptor, I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you. It's horrible to lose a sibling, even when you can see it coming. I lost my brother in January 2018, after watching him struggle for years with addiction (drugs, in his case) and mental illness. IME, the grief never goes away but time does help it recede.

- run 38:53, 7.60 km
everything felt good, yay. gorgeous afternoon/evening for a run, mid-50s and sunny with no wind.

- run 31:07, 4.67 km
w/fiancée, who is clearly still recovering. meant to note this yesterday but i'm having that weird posterior left knee discomfort again that popped up in argentina a couple months ago. troubling.

yesterday

- run 51:43, 9.76 km
ran the three km of continuous uphill in the park around 4:55 pace, just for fun. obviously rest of run was more relaxed. watch says HR averaged 180 for the whole run, which seems improbable.

went to charlotte last weekend to visit my grandmother, didn't end up running at all. motivation has cratered since we decided that my fiancée was set back too far by her illness to make the 50 miler possible. i'm not interested in training for it by myself, part of the point was to spend all those training hours running together and she's only barely able to do slow 5ks right now, which is barely more than a brisk walk for me. i need a new race, or maybe to switch focus for a while. wish there were a gym in my neighborhood that didn't cost $200/month.

monday

- run 37:38, 5.83 km
glacial until the final half km or so, when i kicked it up to around half marathon pace (~4:19).