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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #15 on: January 07, 2014, 02:54:51 am »
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01/06/14
Weight: 148.3lb
ISF: fatigue over full body
Diet: 95g supplemental protein, 6/10


Lower Focus A (Legs Major, Back/Biceps Minor), 5:30PM
Clean: 175xF, 175x1, 145x3, 150x3  :personal-record:
- solid...love this lift, gives some real NFL feel in it

DB Row: 55x10, 55x10
- heavily paused to get that back firing, good
- gotta rest pause, didn't b/c time constraints

Squat: 225x1, 255x2, 225x5, 225x5
- 255x2 is impressive, I think it means my leg strength is there but the endurance/technique for repping 5+ reps is not. my previous maxes are 265x1 and 235x9, so kind of strange numbers for me right now



Notes:
- shortened workout due to some time constraints
- upper body looks like it's reaching the apex, all my lifts are either at PR stages or 90+% of them, which is good.
- bodyweight is increasing at a very solid rate, but I can't let it go to waste. Those gains gotta be muscle
- speed/abs training will start to be incorporated now

First week down... evident that there is serious regression in squatting which I am not happy with. I used to love squatting because I was good at it, worked up to a 265x1 and a 235x9, back when I weighed only ~134lb. Now, squatting brings cold fear into my heart - the bar is uncomfortable and digs into my back and crushes my spirit, I feel like throwing up after doing above 3 reps, my legs shake, my heart yearns to quit and just skip the next rep, the next set, the workout, the leg days, so on. Excuses... Absolutely sad, to a point that its pathetic. My intention is to make that bar my b*tch, just like it used to be. Need to walk up and enjoy the pain. Squatting truly is one of those exercises that sets apart lifters by their mentalities. Those that squat heavy, more then 90-degrees deep, and with 5+ reps have cold blood running inside their vessels...I used to be like that and it's my intention to return to that state.





<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKa7Ywiv734" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKa7Ywiv734</a>
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #16 on: January 10, 2014, 12:24:16 am »
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01/09/14
Weight: 147.6lb
ISF: fatigued body
Diet: 0g supp protein, 1/10


Upper Focus A (Chest/Tris Major, Shoulders Minor), 5:15PM
Bench Press: 180xF, 150x8, 150x5, 150x3
- unhappy with missing one rep max PR

Military Press: 70lb rest paused; 12, 6, 4  :personal-record:
- way easy, upping weight now

Incline Press: 52.5x5, 52.5x5, 52.5x4
- subbed these for the Cable Flys because machine was taken, bench was on pin 3
- weaker then expected, but post-bench and military, makes sense

DB Lateral Raise: 22.5lb rest paused; 10, 7, 5  :personal-record:
- new weight, new PR. gonna stay with this weight a while and get form corrected
 
Weighted Dips: 45x8, 45x5
- shit, triceps were toast. exact same from previous week



Notes:
Unhappy with my life... just have completely lost the mentality to perform and work hard. I used to have it, I used to treasure that mentality that allowed me to set 5/6am alarms and get work done early, just so I could go to the gym and get some basketball work in later. The same mentality that made me, as a vegetarian, drink protein shakes constantly so I'd get 200+ grams of protein in, and avoid all junk food. Now the only ONLY thing that's going right is that I'm going to the gym on a regular basis. Still waking up at f*cking 11am, 12pm, doing NO work in the day, BUMMING around, eating TRASH, NEGLECTING my protein needs, WASTING my time on the computer, the list goes on forever. PATHETIC

It's like a cycle, like an addiction...and the sad part is that I know what my problem is, I can diagnose myself. But I can't treat myself... I've tried and tried to create schedules, plans, countless charts and tables and routines and ideas to help me snap out of my funk, but I never EVER can continue that shit long term. One or two days it works, I'm feeling good and happy, and then bam back to the sh*thole life. Years and years of fighting this crap and I've ALWAYS been on the losing side.

My grades in college (which I promised myself I would FINALLY light a fire under my ass and start focusing for - just like I said every semester of high school) are shit, my work ethic is sickening, but the one part of me that remains the same is the desire. I'm CONSTANTLY daydreaming, thinking, envisioning, wanting, salivating, hoping, yearning, enacting my goals... running around the house like a 10 year old pretending a quarterback is throwing me the football and I'm making the big play, pretending that things were different and I played football all four years of high school, imagining myself being recruited, the star of my college team, dreaming of scenarios in which I would train insanely hard for the next two years and walk on and make my college's D1 team, thoughts of fucking DESTROYING my habits ,making every fucker that laughed at me (I'm not the kid who gets picked on or anything, but the doubters in general) pay........ these thoughts overwhelm me and get me a surge of insane motivation for a few minutes, which again dissipates to the BULLSHIT.

I really don't know what I want in life... maybe the problem is that I have it all given to me, my parents aren't rich but definitely well-off by American standards, I only started working after high school, I have a girlfriend that gives me absolutely NO problems (yet I still don't pay enough attention as I should to her), I've been getting poor grades my whole life because of laziness and procrastination and the only thing that's saved me and given me entry into a semi-decent college was a natural aptitude for taking tests. I think about what I truly desire in life and I always can't name anything, but I know if I think of problems in life, there are dozens of things I can point out. All revolve around my shit work ethic and f*cked up efficiency...so why is it that if I want something so much I can't fix my habits?

I almost wish that I was like many others who don't care about all this stuff like I do and are okay with just going to party, lift to look good once in a while type thing. But for some reason if I party or chill the back of my mind is always haunted with the question of "What exactly are you celebrating?"

Who f*cking knows, this is one of the infinite rants that I have said in my head, out loud to myself, just in written form. By tomorrow morning the same F*CKING SHIT will happen again huh lmao..




not much about mainstream music, but like this

<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4g03b4U_aPk" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4g03b4U_aPk</a>
« Last Edit: January 11, 2014, 02:52:43 am by stuckintheaiir »
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #17 on: January 10, 2014, 07:57:34 am »
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Look into meditation for the wondering/restless mind...srs. 20 minutes before studying puts me in such a better state of mind to work and there's so many beneficial effects beside this, I really should do more...stop living in the past/future and focus on the now!

Also Lorde is awesome, love her!

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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #18 on: January 11, 2014, 01:49:20 am »
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Look into meditation for the wondering/restless mind...srs. 20 minutes before studying puts me in such a better state of mind to work and there's so many beneficial effects beside this, I really should do more...stop living in the past/future and focus on the now!

Also Lorde is awesome, love her!

Fair point... thank you gukl, I will give it a shot if I feel that type of mood creep up on me again. It's just painful because I've been in a constant cycle of trying to rid myself of these disgusting lazy habits for more the five years. After a while, you're almost defeated before even trying to create a plan (your brain is half thinking that you won't follow it).
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #19 on: January 11, 2014, 02:26:36 am »
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01/10/14
Weight: 149.0lb  :personal-record:
ISF: fatigued triceps, sore hamstrings
Diet: 95g supp protein, 6/10


Upper Focus B (Back/Bi's Major, Legs Minor), 5:15PM
Lat Pull: 120x10, 120x8, 120x5 :personal-record:
- still staying with 120lb, I want to maintain excellent form

Squat: 225x10
- recent PR - very happy with this, it's definitely encouraging to see
- should have been rest paused, but was on a time restriction so unfortunately had to focus on the upper body
- I actually wanted to continue with the squats for once lol

Seated Cable Row: 120x10, 120x7.5, 120x5.5
- basically exactly same as before, biceps were toast lol, staying with this weight
 
EZ Bar Curl: 65x8, 65x4  :personal-record:
- just BARELY a PR, but hey a PR is a PR



Notes:
- work work work
- squats are encouraging to see. tomorrow is a rest day, then back at it



<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1cxP2nCBdU" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1cxP2nCBdU</a>
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #20 on: January 11, 2014, 02:58:44 am »
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Sidenote, can't wait to go to the gym in college... those weights are almost definitely lighter then the ones with rubber coating at the Fitness 19 I go to at home. So I'm assuming those are the correct weight, and the ones at this facility are a tad heavier then normal.

Looking to blast some PR's the week of 01/27/13.
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #21 on: January 13, 2014, 01:33:26 am »
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01/12/14
Weight:  :personal-record: 150.0lb  :personal-record:
ISF: none
Diet: 95g supplemental protein, 8/10


Upper Focus C (Shoulders major, Chest/Tris minor), 3:15PM
DB OHP: 55x5, 55x5, 55x5, 55x5, 55x5
- very very easy, happy with this, shooting to break the 52.5x11 PR next week

DB Press: 65lb rest paused; 7, 5, 2  :personal-record:
- work.

Decline Row: wood box incline; 10, 5
- probably ditching this exercise, not hitting shoulders like I'd want

Cable Lateral Raise: 10x10, 15x6, 15x3, 10xburnout
- ugh, wish I didn't have to leave early

Notes:
- 150.0lb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- shortened workout due to some time constraints AGAIN, not happy with these short workouts
- started off really really good, felt nice and strong
- climbing a mountain at sunrise tmr (2517ft evelation, ~2.8 mile trail), then legs workout




« Last Edit: January 22, 2014, 01:05:39 am by stuckintheaiir »
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #22 on: January 21, 2014, 12:11:42 am »
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Certain unforeseen circumstances have caused a troubled past week both in terms of lifting routine and life in general...looking to get back on track (NOT RESTART as I usually would), possibly tomorrow. If the matter at hand stretches further, it would mean restarting next week but obviously trying to avoid such a scenario.
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #23 on: January 21, 2014, 10:57:55 pm »
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01/21/14
Weight: 150.1lb  :personal-record:
ISF: n/a
Diet: 105g supp protein, 5/10


Upper Focus A (Chest/Tris Major, Shoulders Minor), 5:40PM
Bench Press: 175x1, 150x10, 150x7, 150x5
- BEAST. not an all time PR, but steady upward trend even with a 9 day lifting respite is huge

Military Press: 90x4, 70x8.5, 70x7  :personal-record:
- so we don't have a preset barbell with 80lb; that's why it was such a weird weight - will use normal barbell now on and correct weights

DB Incline Press: 52.5x7, 52.5x5, 52.5x5  :personal-record:
- cables were taken so no pec fly, still PR'd

DB Lateral Raise: 22.5lb rest paused; 12, 7, 5  :personal-record:
- bang bang, up weight next time
 
Weighted Dips: 45x8, 45x5
- exact same from previous week, and week before that as well lol



Notes:
- #PRCITY LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOO
- huge, huge workout. Definitely didn't expect this coming in from 8 days straight of doing no physical activity, and 9 days away from gym. All lifts except dips actually went UP. Tomorrow it's gonna be good ol' biceps/back with some squatting (hahahaha).
- interesting thought, for the first time in over an year easily, I lifted without earphones on. Was cool, stopped a bad habit of mine where I always wait for a specific moment of a song to play as I start my lift and feel unprepared if not lifting at that moment.




<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uRf8nDWoH7o" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uRf8nDWoH7o</a>
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #24 on: January 21, 2014, 11:24:58 pm »
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i've literally never once lifted or exercised with earphones in. too fussy. if i had a home gym i'm not even sure i'd play music. well i probably would but not to get in the zone, more just because that's a nice unbroken chunk of time to listen to something.
Muscles are nonsensical they have nothing to do with this bullshit.

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« Reply #25 on: January 22, 2014, 01:00:21 am »
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i've literally never once lifted or exercised with earphones in. too fussy. if i had a home gym i'm not even sure i'd play music. well i probably would but not to get in the zone, more just because that's a nice unbroken chunk of time to listen to something.

Just different styles, I guess then. I've always used music because I really do get emotionally affected (pumped, lazy, trance-like, semi-confidence boosted, etc) by it. The issue comes with when the body adapts to listening to the same pump up music over and over again and you need other alternatives to get you to zone before a PR, etc. That's why at times before squatting sets I'd waste time skipping through songs till one "felt right" lol.

I think I'm gonna go with this though and continue not wearing earphones. Also should technicallyyy be better because in sports/etc you don't have earphones in, so why not practice how you will play hah.
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #26 on: January 22, 2014, 09:42:34 pm »
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01/22/14
Weight: 148.4lb
ISF: sore traps, shoulders, pecs
Diet: 60g supp protein, 8/10


Upper Focus B (Back/Bi's Major, Legs Minor), 4:30PM
Lat Pull: 120x10, 120x10, 120x8 :personal-record:
- BOOM, enough with this 120lb weight, time to move up

Seated Cable Row: 125x10, 125x7, 125x5  :personal-record:
- 130 next time!

Squat: 225x8, 225x3 (NM)
- stupid, I was going for a 3x8 or something similar but there were people next to me talking about something and my ears caught on to the convo as I was on my second set so my focus wavered and I could barely get up that 3rd rep. Not a doubt in my mind that I could've at LEAST hit 6. See LBSS, earphones are helpful at times lol.
 
EZ Bar Curl: 65x13, 65x5, 65x5  :personal-record:
- beast, looks like biceps were on fire today



Notes:
- still mad about squats...just when things looked like they were turning around...smh
- really need to start inputting some ab work. Thinking about getting an ab wheel for my dorm so I could do it on off days or something, dunno if its good for carryover into function on a daily/sports basis though



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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #27 on: February 05, 2014, 04:21:51 pm »
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Been a while (college started up again, other shit, blah blah). Here's yesterday:

02/04/14
Weight: ???
ISF: n/a
Diet: 65g supp protein, 9/10


Boxing Practice
First time going to the practices for this, it was pretty sick, I loved it there. Started off with 45 mins of the competetive members teaching the new ones basic technique (jab, cross, hook punches, foot placement, shifting of weight, center of gravity, etc), then 45 minutes of some ridiculous calisthenics that had me dying out there. Been so long that I did bodyweight exercises, really showed lol, sore as f*ck today. Last, 30-40 min run up a parking garage which cramped just about every muscle in my body, but was pretty cool.

There's practices Tues, Wed, Thurs and I'm planning on going to all of them, really fun and competitive - need something like this. However, I don't want to neglect my gym work so I'm thinking of doing workouts Saturday and Sunday. I think Monday and Friday will need to be rest days (boxing is 2-3 hours, gym is 1-1.5 hrs, and I have homework and shit). Probably either full body workouts or upper/lower.




Kid Cudi is a beast,

<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mFVQAOL3nQ" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mFVQAOL3nQ</a>
« Last Edit: February 05, 2014, 09:25:57 pm by stuckintheaiir »
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Re: 2014 ::: #RISE2014
« Reply #28 on: February 05, 2014, 04:37:08 pm »
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do you have a goal with the boxing or just doing it for fun?
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« Reply #29 on: February 05, 2014, 05:06:31 pm »
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do you have a goal with the boxing or just doing it for fun?

This semester, I'm trying to learn the overall technique because I'm athletic, but by no means a boxer yet lol. Fall semester, I'll tryout for the team and see how it all goes from there. Basically, goal's to compete.
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