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I'm depressed because I'm too racist to date a black girl. I find a lot of black girls really attractive but I always play in my mind a movie scenario of her family saying she cant date my cracker ass while the grandma faints when they find out shes dating me at the dinner table.
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Actually depressing story that's screwed with me more than any girl problems, read only if you care to understand why I've struggled to stay motivated for a while, but the same reason I keep trying:

I took this teaching job in Washington as an opportunity. I had other job offers I turned down that on paper were better jobs, but I liked this location better and it had better opportunities for growth.

Before I applied here I applied a ton of other place including El Paso, TX where my dad's uncle lived. Closest figure I've had to a grandpa. Would visit him every summer and he was super close to my family. My grandpa died when my dad was 14 so his little brother, my dad's uncle, was the one who really brought him into adulthood and he was the best father figure my dad had all through his life. I'd been so focused on school that I haven't been back to visit in like 4 years. This summer just after I had turned down some jobs I was about to go to Mexico for the first time since before my grand uncle had not really been well and been in and out of hospitals. The day before my parents left I decided to stay in case I got this job offer, thinking I would visit him as soon as I had a longer weekend and had some cash saved up. Things were going alright.

First day I'm supposed to be teaching I'm still at the guest bedroom of the teacher I work closest with who, together with his wife, was ridiculously helpful in getting me here. Can't sleep and it's like 4am so I check my phone. I assume I was going to get a call in the morning but the first thing I saw was a public post from my dad to family on facebook saying at about 2am his uncle, who was a great example and tremendous father figure to him, had passed away.

Great way to start first day of real work in your career right?

When I was talking to my dad later when I had the chance to call him I said it was really hurting to have just taken the job. That I wished I'd turned it down and just gone to see my grand uncle. Told me it was all understandable. It was out my control. But then he said he would always ask about me when they were around, right up until the end and that really fucked me up.
Town I'm in is near some pretty cool stuff, but the town itself doesn't have much to offer for 20-somethings and my social life has been great which has made things difficult when I don't have things going on because stuff like that just comes back to me.

Not that I regret taking the job because it's been a great opportunity, but I kinda regret taking the job. Wasn't able to make the memorial service either. I'd give up the money and experience I've made a thousand times over to go back and give my uncle a big hug and get to say goodbye.

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I'll give you my perspective: I bet he would love to know you have the job that you have right now. You should think of your success as being the hug that you think you didn't give. I know these are just words on the screen, but you should think like that. You should cherish the memories you have together.

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I'll give you my perspective: I bet he would love to know you have the job that you have right now. You should think of your success as being the hug that you think you didn't give. I know these are just words on the screen, but you should think like that. You should cherish the memories you have together.

+1, great post
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I'll give you my perspective: I bet he would love to know you have the job that you have right now. You should think of your success as being the hug that you think you didn't give. I know these are just words on the screen, but you should think like that. You should cherish the memories you have together.

+1 for a legitimately helpful post. Thanks guys

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found out she has a new boyfriend via a text to my sister. like 4weeks since we called it of for good.

+ i walked like 10 miles on basically an empty stomach today. lost all my gains.

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A great reason for all women to suck a big fat cheesy knob (and why I stayed away from them for +12 years):

https://www.facebook.com/ScooterMagruder/videos/10152934573822714/?pnref=story
« Last Edit: May 11, 2016, 03:43:50 am by Raptor »

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Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
« Reply #142 on: August 31, 2017, 04:06:12 pm »
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Quit smoking and vaping, work so hard last 6 months either trained or stretched everyday for 1-3 hours, finally got a chance to train/scrimmage for a bball program of some friends...... and get a position as a skills coach.

And that's when i get this "snapping hip syndrome?" bs, never had it before in my life. It's like a slap in the face, it comes and goes randomly every 5-10 minutes.

Like all of a sudden your groin will lock up and it's harder for you to extend your hips, than it goes away, than poof it'll comeback.

Makes me want to take a knife and just slice off whatever tendon that is locking my hip/groin.....

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Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
« Reply #143 on: August 31, 2017, 06:17:12 pm »
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Quit smoking and vaping, work so hard last 6 months either trained or stretched everyday for 1-3 hours, finally got a chance to train/scrimmage for a bball program of some friends...... and get a position as a skills coach.

And that's when i get this "snapping hip syndrome?" bs, never had it before in my life. It's like a slap in the face, it comes and goes randomly every 5-10 minutes.

Like all of a sudden your groin will lock up and it's harder for you to extend your hips, than it goes away, than poof it'll comeback.

damn.

i've had some fairly serious hip injuries .. deep squatting wrecked my hip way back in 2008 or so, just kept squatting through it like a moron and got to the point where I had thoughts of needing a hip replacement ....... switched to half squats after a little bit of rest & made sure not to go deep enough to hurt it, the rest is history.

so sometimes these things can actually turn out in your favor.. try to stay positive and think about it like that.

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Makes me want to take a knife and just slice off whatever tendon that is locking my hip/groin.....

yup. like i mentioned in your journal tho, DON'T go into that self pain infliction mode.

I know alot about it, i've done it. You get so angry that you want to just train through it and will yourself to victory over it, but it's usually impossible. So just try and relax, figure out what could have caused it, try not to over stretch it & make it worse, and TRANSITION into something safe/healthy to keep your progress going.

don't let a potentially minor setback cause you to downward spiral... you never know, it could be gone within 3-7 days or so.

I ran through my knee pain a bit last February or whatever it was.. cost me ~5 months of down time. Caused real damage by running (slow/light) through it.



again, be careful not to overstretch, especially when dealing with the hips/groin/hip flexors.



also, might be a good opportunity to fuqn get ripped.

try to refocus, stay positive, and AELS.

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Re: the EMO thread - when you have depressing weak things to say, say em here
« Reply #144 on: September 05, 2017, 09:04:58 am »
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When I sleep well, feel strong, not sore: I usually have work or something to attend to......

When I sleep bad, feel weak, sore as fuck: I train

When I sleep good, feel strong, i am usually sore as fuck

When I sleep bad, feel weak, I am usually not sore.......

When I sleep good, feel strong, not sore, I usually have an injury......
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Coming back from 2 years of inactivity!

Goal: Maintain 385-405lb squat while cutting down to 165 LB