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Progress Journals & Experimental Routines / Re: chasing athleticism
« on: July 18, 2018, 11:10:20 pm »Notes:
No caffeine today. Shud be interesting! Wasn't got a pretty good headache in the evening and it stayed until i fell asleep. Ate a package of cookies and some chocolate. Not proud of it but long story short, that girl i mentioned earlier, i managed to keep her interest for another week but yesterday night she texted to say take care. Have not dealt well with it, she was probably the one but i wasn't present and blew the chance.
damn that sucks.
dno about "the one" tho.
thanks bro. i think she was more 'the one' than any other girl before her, if that makes sense. She's 32 so she had no time to play games i guess and i was thinking of taking it slow but she's not willing to waste time on someone she might feel is not that serious. Grieving today.. watched my goto michael scott dealing with heartbreak in the Office which always cheers me up with how OTT he is about it all. And i shouldn't take life so seriously. But then the cold realisation sets in that i waited aimlessly for about 2 years since the last girl i was actually interested in marrying and it might be a long time til the next one comes.
ah damn.
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I just can't bring myself to invest emotionally in these things anymore .. i feel i self sabotage cos i have a protection mechanism that prevents me from falling and getting hurt etc
know the feeling!
regardless, nothing wrong with any of that as long as you "learn from it". maybe at least think about what you would do/not do next time a similar situation comes around, just prepare a bit more for future scenarios (if they mean something to you, which it seems like they do).
pc!